"So with all my heart and all my soul
With all I am, Lord, I will follow You"
                                - Hillsong United

We all want to do God's will in our lives. I know I sure do.
I'm about to make a big decision in my life. I've applied for a new job. I know it's a hard one. But I also know that it will be rewarding. I'm aware that it's maybe a little dangerous, but I have the possibility to make a difference in the lives of people who need it most.

This is a big deal to me. To anyone it would be. I'm not doing anything worth while at my current job. But it's a good job. They work well with my schedule, and are all very kind. But I've felt for a long time that God wanted me elsewhere. I prayed for an answer as to where He needed me, and I've prayed for hints. People i know started working at this place, then I met people at work who worked there. someone even told me that "we could really use a personality like yours out there. You'd be great."
Well that was enough for me to start talking about this specific place to the people I knew. And enough to pray about it.
The day of my customer I spoke of about, I started praying for "direct signs." When I was driving home, an employee from this place was posting help wanted signs on the hill I was driving by.

"Ok, God. I get it."

So I put in an application, and I'm going to check on it today. I'm terrified. What If I'm wrong? What if I'm totally twisting God's signs? The way I see it, if I'm reading into this correctly, I'll get that job. If I am wrong, I won't. simple as that. I hope.

But the most annoying part of this whole ordeal is my one and only antagonist. I love her dearly, but my mother refuses to back me on this. She doesn't think it's a good idea. She wants me to stay nice and cozy at my current job. To her, I think it's money and secutity over my personal happiness and fufillment. And I can see where she's coming from. But it seems like the fact that I've been praying hard about this since June holds no strength. I have faith in my answers and thus my decision. I just wish she would, too.

But we'll see how today goes, and go on from there.

[have faith and love]