Thursday, November 17, 2011

Patience for the Cross.

"Patience, a virtue is."

Sometimes, people really just make me mad. The worst? When thet just don't do what they're supposed to do it how they're supposed to do it! When they ask stupid questions about it, or just act like theydon't understand!

Of course, I work with a couple people like that. He just HAS to say the dumbest and most unecessary things, and he keeps other people from doing their jobs. It makes me really want to pretend I don't hear him ask for help. I know this isn't the way I should be, but it's better than my prefered alternative - the deep fryer. That's right! Just a couple minutes, and he would never annoy anyone again. =]

Aren't we all like that though?
When someone crosses us, how likely are we to still be our super cheery, "I fart rainbows" kind of person?
What are we supposed to do?
Forgive them 490 (=70x7) times. Even this said person hasn't been that bad... yet.
But he's lucky I haven't kept count.

Our pastor mentioned last night that Jesus died for the people that crossed him. Literally. The ones who held the nails, swungt the hammer, and why cracked the whips.

Wow.
I think that this realization can easily change how we react to those who bug us, and to annoying situations all around.

[grin and bear it]

Monday, November 14, 2011

Can anybody find me...

... Somebody to love??!!??

Hello, everyone!
This is going to be a sort of off-color (as far as I go) post.

I'd love to have a boyfriend right now.
Not because I'm bored, or because I don't have friends, or because I'm lonely.
But because I'd love to be in love with someone.
I'd love to have someone to open up to, and to listen to.
I want someone to cuddle with.
I want to look at someone, and think "Wow... I love them."
I miss sending really long, smushy texts.
I'd love having someone romantically tell me they love me.
God is blessing my life so much right now. I have a crazy and honest joy in my life. I've got a wonderful life. School is great, work is... well, work. But I'd love love love to share all that goodness with someone.
I want to be in love with someone.
I want someone to be in love with me...
I want someone to know all of my flaws, all of my fears and failures, my mistakes and wrong-doings, and to Love. Me. Anyway.
Gah! I just want somebody to love.

[Patience, a virtue is.]

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Praying for Lemonade.

"She loves her mama's lemonade
And hates the sound that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.

She swears that there's no difference
Between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in-between, a beautiful disaster."
                      -Beautiful Disaster, Jon McLaughlin.

Dear Guess Who,
I don't think about you everyday.

Even on what would've been our 1 year, I didn't think about you at all. >=^]

I don't miss you anymore. Do I miss who you used to be? Sure. Just a smidgen.

Not being with you no longer hurts.

You changed, and so did I. It didn't work. No biggie.

It's not hard to talk to you.
It doesn't hurt that you don't reply at all. You don't even acknowledge me. But it sure does make me mad!! I mean c'mon!! You do know that I'm not a stray dog that you can just ignore. I'm a human, too. And at one point in time, I meant the world to you. How is it possible to completely forget everything? Well now I know what I must have REALLY meant to you -Jack Squat.

Who says I haven't moved on? Give me a break.

Dear Bestest Friends,
But that doesn't mean it doesn't suck when you rub your love in my face. I'm honestly very happy for you. You're two of my best friends! And the skirt in the relationship knows me like no one else. But yes!! I'm jealous. Not of either of you particularly, but of what you have. The love (call it what it is) you guys have is adorable! It's so super cute that you two cuddle and such. And its even sort of cute that you can (and frequently do) tune out the rest of the world when someone is mid-sentence. It's awesome!
And I had that.
Now I don't.
But I want it.

Badly..
But please don't let my pity party and petty feelings ruin your moment. I love seeing your love. it sort of hurts, but it's just so freaking adorable! =]

I'm praying for God to send me the guy he wants me with. I know it might not be who I'll be with forever, but someone who needs me, and maybe I could help. I want love so horribly. I'm ok with being single, but I'd love to love somebody. And I'd love to be loved.

All in due time, I suppose.