Praying for Lemonade.

"She loves her mama's lemonade
And hates the sound that goodbyes make.
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her.

She swears that there's no difference
Between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her.

She would change everything for happy ever after.
Caught in the in-between, a beautiful disaster."
                      -Beautiful Disaster, Jon McLaughlin.

Dear Guess Who,
I don't think about you everyday.

Even on what would've been our 1 year, I didn't think about you at all. >=^]

I don't miss you anymore. Do I miss who you used to be? Sure. Just a smidgen.

Not being with you no longer hurts.

You changed, and so did I. It didn't work. No biggie.

It's not hard to talk to you.
It doesn't hurt that you don't reply at all. You don't even acknowledge me. But it sure does make me mad!! I mean c'mon!! You do know that I'm not a stray dog that you can just ignore. I'm a human, too. And at one point in time, I meant the world to you. How is it possible to completely forget everything? Well now I know what I must have REALLY meant to you -Jack Squat.

Who says I haven't moved on? Give me a break.

Dear Bestest Friends,
But that doesn't mean it doesn't suck when you rub your love in my face. I'm honestly very happy for you. You're two of my best friends! And the skirt in the relationship knows me like no one else. But yes!! I'm jealous. Not of either of you particularly, but of what you have. The love (call it what it is) you guys have is adorable! It's so super cute that you two cuddle and such. And its even sort of cute that you can (and frequently do) tune out the rest of the world when someone is mid-sentence. It's awesome!
And I had that.
Now I don't.
But I want it.

Badly..
But please don't let my pity party and petty feelings ruin your moment. I love seeing your love. it sort of hurts, but it's just so freaking adorable! =]

I'm praying for God to send me the guy he wants me with. I know it might not be who I'll be with forever, but someone who needs me, and maybe I could help. I want love so horribly. I'm ok with being single, but I'd love to love somebody. And I'd love to be loved.

All in due time, I suppose.