I feel like I have an obligation to post. I've gotten requests for more, and someone even approached me at work.
She told me I was completely adorable, and that I needed to blog twice as often as I did.
Although, as it stands, I have nothing to say.
That's a lie.
I have sooo much to tell you.
1. I am an awesome actress. People have told me that they envy the way I can keep everyone and everything around me held together. Oh how wrong you are!
I can put on a bold face and smile at school. There are parts of my past that very few people know about. And they were told only so they could carry me through it.
2. I am no picture of health. I have a heart murmur. I have Vassodepressor Syncope (My blood vessels constrict, and I faint. It has triggers, like epilepsy.)
I have the immune systen of a chemo patient. And I have a PARS Defect. Which is, as I can understand it, when the catrilage or bone that holds my L4 vertebra in place never fully formed, and thus my vertebra slips and slides as it pleases. Ouch.
3. I'm girly. I love my heels and my dresses, and my make-up is my life. I love doing my hair and my nails, and my face. I love dressing up, and my handwriting is huge and cute. But I drive a truck. I love four-wheelers. I can ride a jet ski with the best of them. I really want to learn to shoot a bow, and I love fishing. Joshua says he got the best of both worlds. He's right.
4. Certain things will totally set me off.
People smacking their lips while they chew, or when I can hear them chewing even with their mouths closed.
Scratching sounds. Like nails on a seat belt, or any material, drive me nuts. And all patience goes out the window.
5. I want to change the world. I have to make a difference. And I will. Watch me.
6. I adore kids. I love love love them. I want 6 of my own. I know it might sound crazy, but that's 6 more chances I have to get something right.
7. I love watching shows I watched when I was little. It makes me somehow feel like everything can go back to the way it was. When I was safe, and everything was simple.
8. I love Love. It's incredible. Whether it's the love between my friends and family, or the love Joshua shows me everyday. But my favorite love, is the love God has for me. =]
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Acrylic Rain Boots.
So I'm not going to lie. Acrylic nails are killer awesome. But they also super suck, too. Because they hurt. You catch them on things, you scratch yourself with them... It's just a hot mess for the first couple of days. And it's been an interesting experience. Don't get me wrong, I love them! They make me feel weirdly... girly. Now I do my hair, and I paint my nails... But this is a little crazy.
Oh! More big news! I started COLLEGE!! Class was uneventful. Not boring, but not really exciting. I spoke to like.. 2 people.
The "Freshman Welcome Party" was pretty fun, though. I knew nearly no one there, but recognized some people from class, so I asked to sit by them, and they were really chill about it. They're an awesome group. Y'all know what this means? I MADE FRIENDS!!!!!!!!
And I'm proud of myself. But the only thing that sets myself apart from them? I'm the only one without a pair of rain boots. =]
Oh! More big news! I started COLLEGE!! Class was uneventful. Not boring, but not really exciting. I spoke to like.. 2 people.
The "Freshman Welcome Party" was pretty fun, though. I knew nearly no one there, but recognized some people from class, so I asked to sit by them, and they were really chill about it. They're an awesome group. Y'all know what this means? I MADE FRIENDS!!!!!!!!
And I'm proud of myself. But the only thing that sets myself apart from them? I'm the only one without a pair of rain boots. =]
Friday, August 26, 2011
Helmet-Hair and Yellow Sponges
Ok. So as part of my Back-to-School Beautification Process, I got my hair trimmed up. And it's sooooo bloody short! The way it frames my face makes it look like a dag-gone helmet.. It's counterproductive, really.
King's Island trip is tomorrow! And I really can't tell you how excited I am. I'm getting out of the house, and spending the day with some seriously awesome friends. Oh! And did I mention the rides?
[I've finally got a friend who actually asks me to hang out. Someone who will listen, and not try to tell me how her life is worse. It's about time!]
School starts Tuesday! I can't wait. I'm super crazy excited about meeting new friends, and potential boyfriends. Although I'm totally not ready for a relationship yet. No, Sir!
I still miss Josh sometimes. And I wish I didn't. He was a total jerk after we broke up. Oh well. That just made it easier to move on. =]
Mom's surgery went well. She looks terrible, but I'm not going to tell her that! She has a thing called a bolster on her nose, and it's just a little yellow sponge that's stitched to her skin graft. That's really the worst looking part. I went to see her in recovery, and she looked terrible. I've got a fairly strong stomach, but I nearly passed out. I felt sooo bad leaving her, but my uncle was there, so it's not like she was alone. They only had her in "Conscious Sedation", so that they didn't have to intubate her. But I think she could've used a little more anesthesia. She said she felt everything! I felt awful for her.
So things here are moving a little slower than usual. I'm thinking about baking brownies. Good idea? I think so!
King's Island trip is tomorrow! And I really can't tell you how excited I am. I'm getting out of the house, and spending the day with some seriously awesome friends. Oh! And did I mention the rides?
[I've finally got a friend who actually asks me to hang out. Someone who will listen, and not try to tell me how her life is worse. It's about time!]
School starts Tuesday! I can't wait. I'm super crazy excited about meeting new friends, and potential boyfriends. Although I'm totally not ready for a relationship yet. No, Sir!
I still miss Josh sometimes. And I wish I didn't. He was a total jerk after we broke up. Oh well. That just made it easier to move on. =]
Mom's surgery went well. She looks terrible, but I'm not going to tell her that! She has a thing called a bolster on her nose, and it's just a little yellow sponge that's stitched to her skin graft. That's really the worst looking part. I went to see her in recovery, and she looked terrible. I've got a fairly strong stomach, but I nearly passed out. I felt sooo bad leaving her, but my uncle was there, so it's not like she was alone. They only had her in "Conscious Sedation", so that they didn't have to intubate her. But I think she could've used a little more anesthesia. She said she felt everything! I felt awful for her.
So things here are moving a little slower than usual. I'm thinking about baking brownies. Good idea? I think so!
Friday, August 19, 2011
WOW!
Oh my goodness! I haven't posted in over a month! I can't believe it!
Well... A lot has happened in the past while -at least the past week.
Joshua and I broke up. I got comfortable in our relationship, which I think is an ok thing to do. However, with my new-found comfort, and the craze and lack of control I felt in my life, I tried to control Josh. And we argued a lot because of it. He got tired of being controled and he got tired of arguing. I don't blame him at all.
But we've talked it out, and it's all good between us. We don't plan on getting back together, but moving on, and being happy.
I start school in 11 days! This is HUGE to me! Because this is the fresh start that I've wanted for years. Everyone in high school remembers me as the little chunky kid from 5th grade, and then the kid who was never afraid to disagree with you in jr. high. But I won't know a single person in my classes. And I'm ok with that. I'm actually really excited to make new friends. I'm pretty good at it, to be honest.
So through things going crazily wrong (Mummy's cancer, Dad's heart trouble, my sudden lack of Josh) I've had no choice but to lean completely on God. I know He has a plan for me, and that this is all part of it. I just have to know that all things will work for the good of them that love the Lord. I think I've gotten pretty darn good at trusting God and His plan.
And I've never been happier. =]
Well... A lot has happened in the past while -at least the past week.
Joshua and I broke up. I got comfortable in our relationship, which I think is an ok thing to do. However, with my new-found comfort, and the craze and lack of control I felt in my life, I tried to control Josh. And we argued a lot because of it. He got tired of being controled and he got tired of arguing. I don't blame him at all.
But we've talked it out, and it's all good between us. We don't plan on getting back together, but moving on, and being happy.
I start school in 11 days! This is HUGE to me! Because this is the fresh start that I've wanted for years. Everyone in high school remembers me as the little chunky kid from 5th grade, and then the kid who was never afraid to disagree with you in jr. high. But I won't know a single person in my classes. And I'm ok with that. I'm actually really excited to make new friends. I'm pretty good at it, to be honest.
So through things going crazily wrong (Mummy's cancer, Dad's heart trouble, my sudden lack of Josh) I've had no choice but to lean completely on God. I know He has a plan for me, and that this is all part of it. I just have to know that all things will work for the good of them that love the Lord. I think I've gotten pretty darn good at trusting God and His plan.
And I've never been happier. =]
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